What a way to come back from Spring Break, right? I gotta say, I did not see this online thing coming. Part of me is happy about it, part of me is nervous about it and all of me is just weird out by it. I feel wrong-footed.
I’m a little grateful, though. As a person who has already had health issues nearly cause academic problems, I’m relieved to not have to be around so many potential sources for germs. This way, I can stop worrying so much about trying to keep going despite illness and health issues, because I can just do everything from home.
Also, I’ve always loved doing things on my own schedule, so having the freedom to be flexible in how I organize my day is great. Especially since I’m not really a morning person.
But I’m also a little disappointed. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to create more opportunities for the virus to spread, so I totally get why we’re pretty much finishing the year online, but I do like the variety that comes with class time.
I tend to be a homebody, especially with all the responsibilities that I need to deal with in my last semester here. But sitting in my house all day gets old, and I don’t usually have the energy to be social after all the homework is done. So it’s nice to have something that forces me to get out of the house but doesn’t mean that I’m ignoring my other responsibilities. I’ll miss that in the weeks ahead.
Plus, sometimes online classes can be a weird sort of difficult. They’re both more tangible and less so. They’re more tangible because they’re always there, almost always accessible. However, because the reminders are online and not being told to you face-to-face, sometimes it’s easier to forget about them or consider them less important.
I think that’s the weirdest part for me. I like online classes, but I have to go into them knowing that that’s what’s going on. It usually takes me a few weeks to find the rhythm of the classes, and now my whole system just got majorly thrown for a loop. It’s manageable, but it still makes me worry.
What a way to end my college career.
